The small things don't matter

As the tornado of emotion dissipates, you find yourself sitting on the outside watching those that thrive on chaos and feed off of others despair...and wondering why you let these vampires suck the life out of you for so long.  They throw out tendrils barbed with triggers they know will engage you...but only so long as you accept those triggers.  Eventually, you have to decide:  Shit?  Or get off the pot? 

The truth that I imagine I knew all along has come out about not only Tom but others, and I realize that they require misery and dysfunction in their world.  That is a sad way to live.

So, while my life might not be perfect and it's far from successful, I know that the path I'm on is the right one for me at the moment.  It's the path I need to take to give my daughters what they will need in the future.  My kids all know that they are my reason for living, and that I'm doing everything I can to fix the mistakes I've made in the past.  No one else matters.

Why do we let others feelings matter?

I sometimes wonder, "Why do I let anyone else's needs, wants, or opinions control my life?"  And by "anyone" I mean those who are obviously quite against my current life path.

The world is such an amazing place with so much to explore and learn...I think I'm done wasting my time with those who choose to live in their own negative vacuum.

Life is good today....

I get to go the Ball!!!

I'm getting ready to head to Lake Tahoe for the Marine Corps Ball on Saturday!!!

I'm so excited!!!!

Working with my daughter

Today is going fairly well...my 12 year old is helping me work on one of my websites.  She's so smart and creative!! Now if I could only send her and her sister a computer so we could work together every day (AND see each other via webcam), this whole separation would not be so hard.  I'm working on it though...I know it will happen soon.

Ok, she's back, going to work now!

It's a good day today!!

I'm officially a student!!  I'll be studying to become a Veterinary Technician!! I'm so excited I can't even focus on anything right now.

***insert image of me bouncing like a Tigger here***

I haven't told anyone, with the exception of a few people who gave me references and my kids...but today I can blab to the world!

I need to try to get some work done, the Marines that are so good to us are waiting for something from me so I need to make myself focus long enough to finish that art for them.

I'll be back to bounce up and down some more later!