Moving forward. Again.

It's been a long time since I posted.  Since December actually.

Sometimes I'm afraid to keep blogging, because I'm still scared he's going to find out and come completely unhinged.  His full name isn't on here, and I doubt anyone he knows would ever read it...but God forbid ANYONE know his personal business.  I honestly don't know how far his reaction would go.

But then, I start thinking and decide...Screw it!  He did what he did, I did what I did and I don't give a shit who knows.  The people who matter to me know the truth and those that spread lies and think they know the whole story can rot in hell as far as I'm concerned.  They no longer exist to me.

Things have come a long way since I wrote my last post in December.  I'm in California still, but life is about the change drastically again.  I'm heading back to Florida in a few weeks and will spend the majority of my time there because that is where my kids are going to be for a while.  My heart can't exist this far away anymore.  And it's not fair to the girls to keep this fight going.  They deserve both parents and a stress free life. 

I will be heading back to Florida a different person entirely.  I'm not sure anyone is going to like who they are getting back.  It's going to be very interesting. 

It's been a long, strange trip, my friends...but I'm back!

This blog was started in 2006 to give me an outlet for expressing my absolute misery in a way that would allow me to get it all out while not getting me in trouble with my husband and family. 

I stopped blogging in June 2008.  I'm not sure why I stopped.  I wish I hadn't so I could have documented the complete insanity that continued after that.

It's now 2011, I'm in the middle of a divorce, moved across the country to get away from my husband and the rest of the family (that seems to have forgotten he's a violent and unstable person), had the husband agree to let the girls come with me (we were going to share time with them equally) and then after he gave me just enough money to get here from the tax return, he let me get to California, got a lawyer and then said he was keeping the girls. 

I have a plan and you are welcome to hang out and watch to see if the plan will work the way I hope it will, or if I will have to walk back to Florida and fight with nothing to get two of the three most important parts of my life back in a safe environment.

At this point I'm starting up with the blog to keep documenting the crap he's doing to my kids, that he's allowed to do to my kids because HE has an income and a lawyer.  The kids are miserable, there is absolute chaos there every day.  I get multiple phone calls from crying kids every day.  They are getting violent, injuring each other and screaming and crying all day long.  He's put them in school because he says he can't watch them and work.  Well, if he hadn't lied and kept them there when they were supposed to be with me, that would never have been a problem.  Of course, he told everyone I abandoned them, and I found out real quick who my friends were.  I'll get in to details later, though. 

Thanks for stopping by, I appreciate you taking the time to join me in this adventure called life. 

Peace!

:-)